The after feeling

I boasted too soon about not having a spanking all year! Well, I had mentioned to TJ that I hadn't and of course he felt the need to change that. So that night he had given me a reminder spanking. Simple, over his lap with his hand. Enough to warm my bottom for a bit and for me to feel loved. It wasn't harsh or anything and there was no real point except to give me a spanking. It was wonderful. I slept like a baby and felt happy and loved!

Then yesterday I had earned myself a punishment. I felt really really bad about what I had done because it could have caused him a lot of trouble at work. (I had not put any gas in his car..after using it for a few days and he was late to work for a big meeting because he had to stop to get some. This is a specific rule he had set and I flat out broke it)

The spanking wasn't that horrible. I was already very sorry because of the trouble I caused him so he had gone pretty easy on me. He used his belt and his hand and my bottom was completely warm and red afterwards. He did a lot of snuggling with me while I cried; because I felt badly not becuase the spanking hurt.

What I found odd is that I was still felt very upset with myself over what I had done. He had made several comments during the spanking. One of which was "I'm an easy guy to please and live with". That is so true! He doesn't set many rules, in fact there are only 2 "rules". He also said that when I disobey his rules it makes him feel like I don't think he's important enough to listen to. His words really hit me deep in my mind.

He is very loving and he wants to keep me safe. I've asked for this lifestyle and yet I still find it hard to follow his "Rules". I felt horrible even after the spanking and still feel a bit guilty today. He's told me that it's been dealt with and that its' over. He didn't get into trouble (he had been very lucky) and that everything was ok.

I wonder if he hadn't gone so easy on me if I wouldn't have felt any guilt once it was all over. I cried A LOT after the spanking and he held me while I blubbered all over his chest.

When he tucked me in he wanted a little "nook nook". Actually...what he said was "You could butter my toast, if you want..." with an evil grin (Thanks Spanky for that phrase by the way)
I giggled and we kissed a bit but that was it. I explained that mentally I wasn't ready for anything physical like that and he was completly understanding.

I have the best husband in the world! Even though he knew I was sorry he didn't let that stop him from dishing out the punishment I had earned. He also gave me all the love I needed afterwards without expecting anything in return.

Yes, I'm a very lucky woman indeed!